This is actually an email I sent to a friend, but I feel it describes my feelings so well. We all have our mountains to climb…
Well, I made it through major surgery—lost two liters of blood and almost needed a blood transfusion, but luckily didn’t. I made it through the removal of two ribs and my chest being stretched. I made it through my night in ICU and a few days on the spinal floor. I made it through low oxygen levels and having to be on oxygen, pulling a tank with me. I made it to the rehab hospital—my first ambulance transport. I made it through the most intense pain in my chest. I knew I must be having a heart attack, but it turned out to be a post-surgery complication—a moderately collapsed lung, where they had to drain more fluid from around my lung—another LITER. And there was still 500ccs left to absorb on its own. I made it through xray after xray to make sure Lung is ok, though it has scarring and will never be the same. And will take 2-3 months before the pain and tightness will lessen. I made it through the pain so bad i lay there crying with tears rolling down my face. I made it through 3 hrs a day of physical therapy and occupational therapy. I made it through walking with a walker and graduating to a cane, which I still use. I am making it through wearing this massive brace that I will wear for at least six more months. I made it up and down my first flight of stairs. It was hard to breathe because my endurance is so low because of my lung, but I did it! I made friends in rehab who are struggling like me. I have learned I have a lot of support. I made it through my surgery checkup with good feedback (go back in six weeks) and I made it through my first long car ride, having to stop halfway through the drive because of the pain. But… I made it home. Into my own bed. I made it back to my babies and my husband. It has been a hell of a ride… and I have a lot more recovery to face–6 months plus–but as I see it, I sure have done a lot…and I sure have a lot to be thankful for. Thank you for praying for me. I’m continually amazed at this life…and what it brings…and i’m continuing to grow in faith. And trusting. I am trying to remain open to where God is leading me and where he needs me to go next.
This is a hard time. My emotions are all over the place. But I will continue to look at my successes as I heal. I hope, no matter what obstacles we face in this life, we can look to the good. And be able to say “today I’m a little better than yesterday”.
6 thoughts on “I made it…”
Keep on moving forward..with faith and the one above all you will get there and others will
see what faith and God can do for us.. our thoughts and prayers are with you.. Buddy
So happy for you, Lee Ann. Your mom and I have been friends through school and life. I knew you could pull through because you are strong. God is good.
Beautiful writing LeAnna. You are courageous and honest and very talented. Love you. Betty
LeAnna Darling, your courage is inspiring and contagious beyond words. I would like to present your text to my film classes at Trident Tech with your permission.
I am so sorry you had to endure this experience and still have more to face ahead. But I know you will face and get through it with the same courage you have faced every element of adversity in your life.
That would be fine. I appreciate your kind words.